I feel like a new hell has started. I know that you’re not gone, but your such a long distance away. I know that you’ll be coming back a lot, but normally i would see you every day. It’s going to take a long time for me to get used to this. I feel so uncomfortable when you aren’t around. I get so self-conscious, but when you’re around i don’t even care what i look like. I try to take my mind off of you by hanging out with my friends, but i feel like i act too weird for them because i’m used to being myself around you. I can’t handle not having you every day and it’s only the beginning. I know it’ll get better, though. It has to. Even if i have to wait the whole two years for everything to get better for me. You said it yourself, i guess we just love each other too much. Too much that we can’t go a week without each other. We become mentally and physically tired. It sounds so cliche.